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things were different before.
before when?
i don’t even remember anymore.
i didn’t care as much.
i didn’t stress as much.
i didn’t sweat nothing, i guess there were no things.
i guess that’s the difference.
i used to dream.
i used to sleep more and see more.
i used to see more vividly, now things are dull.
i see no color anymore, people regressed.
i can’t focus as well, they can’t accept things, well,
i guess that’s why i sweat things now.
i used to ask questions.
i used to talk to people more, now
it’s all about me, myself, and
i miss those days.
i, i, i don’t know, i repeat myself.
it’s how i think now, i don’t internalize things anymore.
i guess that’s why things were different, i guess i got things back then.
i’m uncertain, where should i go?
i’m confused,
i need help,
i need to ask for help.
i need to listen to people who try to help.
i have a lock on my desk,
i used to have it all on lock.
i used to be locked in, now,
i’m locked out of my joys.
i’m trying to look beyond myself.
i’m trying to get better.
i’m always trying.
i’m always thinking about myself.
i wish i knew why
things were different before.
can you help me?